Woes of being thin-
Yesterday while shopping a saleslady told me about eight times how skinny I was and I responded with the usual “aiyah, it’s in my genes, everyone tells me I am too skinny…”, she waved me off and said, well the grass is greener on the other side.
I wonder when has it been okay to comment on another person’s body? And also, why do people think it is okay to comment on a skinny person’s body but usually tip toe around weight issues of a fat person?
I think I must be numb to the majority of the things said, but sometimes I get taken aback and surprisingly hurt when people say, “Walao she freakishly thin leh.” If it were strangers I might brush it off but if friends bring it up, I’d be indignant. I mean really? I’ve been the same weight since you’ve met me….
That being said, I don’t think I’ll ever be confident or happy with my body (is anyone really?) but I think I am getting closer to being okay with it. That doesn’t mean I don’t want to put on another 5kg.
My GP told my mom,who asked if there was any way for me to gain weight, “i feel like she’s okay, as long as she’s healthy… and she is.” So if I’m not concerned about my skinniness, you shouldn’t be.
last year i said resolutions were stupid and all i wanted to be was better. well it turns out that there is no measurable way to define better and so it made me feel like 2013 was a failure because i wasn’t ‘better’. so despite still feeling like resolutions are a hard thing to keep, i will make some this year because this year has already given me the feels that it will be hard, uncertain and complicated, and i need some ideas planted in my head to keep me grounded.
i’m not saying that making resolutions will allow the year to become less uncertain, all i’m saying is, this year i’m going to at least try.
i shouldn’t have behaved the way i did
i am better than that