so i finally finished my exams, and i think ordeal is the right word to describe it. brought it upon myself because i barely attended classes and was a lazy sea cucumber.that’s why the last month was insanely torturous, and as bad as it was, it also made me realize how amazing the people around me were. 

i regularly woke up to encouraging texts and people doing nice things and making me laugh.

anyway, i finally watched iron man 3 and the nigglets were really funny last night and we ate frog leg porridge so i felt much better about the exams.

brought out my stack of books, and paints and craft materials because there’s a party tomorrow and also….. this is the LAST. SUMMER. HOLIDAY. of my life. 

Torn between wanting summer to come RIGHT NOW and time to stop because I am really really unprepared for exams.

Times like these…. I just want to walk straight into a black hole and vanish.

i hate it when people expect to be babied because they can’t handle their own emotions. 

also, haven’t we all realize that giving doesn’t necessarily equate receiving? that shouldn’t stop you from giving anyway because if you treat every relationship as a tit-for-tat, every single relationship will be tiring. 

i am always counting down to something. the end of a day, week, month. i tell myself, “get through this and it’ll be okay” 

i forget to live in the moment. i am always chasing a dream, a hobby, an idea. i am not here. i am there. in the future. waiting for present me to catch up. 

I want to learn how to draw, learn how to paint. 

I want to learn how to speak in a whole new other language.